Debbie Hartung is a San Francisco, California writer and artist who enjoys traveling and live music.
What began as your motivation to write your memoir, The Factory of Maladies: Seven Days on a San Francisco Psych Ward?
(DH): The Factory of Maladies began as a stream-of-consciousness journal that I began writing after I was released from the psychiatric ward. I was experiencing intense PTSD and it was only when I began to experience relief from my symptoms; initially, my memoir was written simply for my own healing. I spent seven years journaling; in the beginning, the more I wrote, the greater the PTSD flashbacks became, due to the triggering nature of my experience. Channeling this trauma into my journal proved to be one of the greatest assets of my writing style and eventually, it also became the ultimate catharsis.
Awareness about one’s mental health and how one can help themselves has been more publicly discussed in the past decade, though it is still a work in progress. In what ways do you think that mental illness treatment still needs to be improved?
(DH): I believe that there have been many improvements in the overall treatment of mental illness, yet there are a myriad of ways in which our current public funded treatment for mental illness can be improved. For example, I feel that adequate funding for psychiatric wards, increased staff (many of the staff I encountered during my institutionalization were exhausted and clearly overworked), and appropriate training to deal with patients who cannot always advocate for themselves. For example, a few years prior to my institutionalization, I was admitted to the same hospital for an issue with my ovaries. While there, I was given heated blankets, fluffy pillows, clean hospital gowns, round-the-clock care from knowledgeable and compassionate staff, and morphine for my intense physical pain. This was in stark contrast to my tenure of the psych ward, where I slept on a dirty bed with threadbare blankets and a pancake-thin pillow in a freezing room. I wore the same pair of scrubs for days on end and I received the bare minimum of care. I truly believe that patients suffering from a mental illness deserve to be treated with the same amount of compassion, care, dignity, and kindness as any other medical condition.
What is something you learned about yourself as you were writing this memoir?
(DH): I learned that although sharing my story can be scary and uncomfortable, being vulnerable is actually a form of strength.
Were there any obstacles you had while writing this?
(DH): The most challenging aspect of writing The Factory of Maladies was on an emotional level, as I confronted the memoires that haunted me on a daily basis.
Out of this experience, what is something you hope others take away from your story?
(DH): The message that I hope for my readers is: a sense of hope. Although my story may seem bleak in the beginning, it is also relatable on many levels. Most people have struggled with mental health challenges to varying degrees and it is easy to feel trapped in a downward spiral. However, the fact that I am alive and that I was able to write a memoir while recovering from a brain injury sustained during my suicide attempt, means that I have overcome adversity – and so can the reader.
And lastly, do you have any other writing projects you have planned for the future?
(DH): I am currently working on a novel and a book of short stories that I hope to share with the world soon.
The Factory of Maladies is her literary debut, chronicling her healing crisis on a psychiatric ward.